COMPS IS FAST APPROACHING.
The tension is high. The cold sweats begin. Here's a photo I took this morning whilst studying, right before I curled up in a fetal position, whimpering & whispering, "No, please, no" to myself. Just kidding, that didn't happen - but I was this 👌🏼close. These days my brain feels like mush & my eyelids are heavy by 7pm. But a morning run & an afternoon nap do the trick. You know what can't be helped, though? MY ANXIETY ABOUT COMPS.
COMPS: The mothership of all exams. A.K.A, my worst nightmare and the bane of my existence. It's ugly. It's scary. It's gross. And it's the impeding inevitable. If graduate school was measured with Mario Kart analogies, finals are the banana peel a foot away from the finish line - and the effing red tortoise shell is COMPS. Zooming 'round the bend, ready to mercilessly destroy everything you worked so hard to achieve in your academic career, so conveniently last minute. 🤦🏼♀️
Here's the deal: I'm expected to study 15 classes I've taken since 2014 and take a massive brain dump on a 4-hour-long test, and if you didn't think that was silly enough, just add a full-time job & an absurd amount of homework on to that, like the cherry on top of an ice cream sundae from hell. I'm studying like my life depends on it with the little time I have & I feel a little queasy on the daily. 🙇🏼♀️ I'm both dreading & looking forward to November 6th. I cannot wait to be done with college. Forever. And if anyone tells me they love grad school right now, I'll punch them. 🙄😑👊🏼
Anyway, I guess the point of this post was just to vent. Also, I probably won't blog for a little while until COMPS hell is over. (If I'm still responsive) after this is all over, let's go get a drink! That is all. Oh, also, prayers for the redemption of my soul are welcome & appreciated in advance. Thank you. #graduatestudentproblems 🎓
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